Superhero

Colton LOVES his Spiderman pj's. He wants everything Spiderman. He wants to be Spiderman :)

sick days

Today is one of those days that I question my decision to go back to work.

Last night Cash was crying, pretty much all night. He woke up at 10pm and just wanted me to hold him. He would fall asleep on my shoulder and when I tried to put him back in his bed he would scream. This happened all night long. I think I got a total of 90 minutes of sleep last night.

So I know that I need to take him to the doctor, but I have work and Russ can't take him because he has to travel today to Oklahoma. I struggle with work and the kids all the time. The guilt of being a working mom just overwhelms me sometimes. Days like this, I am just tired. Tired of waking up at 4:30 every morning, tired of driving 1 hour each way to work, tired of having to kiss my babies good bye and telling them "mommy has to go to work", tired of wondering what kind of day the boys are having, and tired of being tired when I get home.

This too shall pass and I'll get over my self pity...but I think I deserve days like this. I think I need days like this to keep me grounded and remind me what's really important...my boys (all 3 of them).

It's beginning to look alot like Christmas.

I love this crazy life...

wow. It's been a long time since I've posted. Life caught up with me after going back to work...but things are a little slow now so finally I'm able to get on the computer again and blog about life.

We'll my boys are older, Colton will be 3 in a month and Cash will be 1 in 2 weeks. It's been an amazing year. Russ and I are just busy with work and the boys and trying to find time for each other. I couldn't have ever imagined that I would be as busy a I am with 2 kids. Most days I wake up at 4:30am, go for my daily run, get back home, shower as fast as I can, get to work by 7am, put in a full day's work, leave at 4pm, get the boys at 5pm, do dinner, bathe the kids, put the kids to bed, eat dinner with the husband, start cleaning up the house that looks like it's been hit by a tornado and then finally, I get to sit down. I usually pass out around 9:30pm (with a little help from some wine). And I wake up the next day to do it all over again. This is my wonderful, amazing, crazy life that I would not trade with anyone. And I am not being sarcastic either :)

Over the year, Colton has grown up so so much. He is turning into a little, adorable man. This summer he fell in love with baseball. That's all we did every evening, was play baseball in the backyard with him. I'm not going to lie, the kid is good. I mean really good. He would point to where he was going to hit the ball, which was usually over the fence, and about 95% of the time, that's exactly where he would hit it. Russ took him to his first Ranger's game and they had a blast together and Colton came home with a mini wooden bat.

Colton is his mother's child and he loves to do puzzles, color and draw. Oh yeah, he also likes to clean. He's a little OCD about it, but I enjoy it. We finally got him potty trained this summer, which has been a huge relief on us and our pocket books. And he is the best big brother we could ever ask for. He still struggles with sharing, but don't we all. I recently read another friend's blog and she used the word "spirited" to describe her first born and I couldn't think of better word to describe our Colton. He is emotional, funny, full of energy (from the moment he wakes up), smart, stubborn, athletic, charming, independent and a lot of the time challenging to Russ and myself. But I do have to remind myself almost daily that he is only 3 and I wouldn't want him any other way.

Cash, my sweet, laid back baby, has just grown bushels over the year. He is trying his hardest to walk, but his legs are still a little wobbly. He takes several steps and then he just falls down. He LOVES to play with balls and anything that his brother has. Whatever Colton is doing, Cash is right there behind him trying to do the same thing. And he will just laugh and laugh at Colton. Cash is such a loving, shy, happy-go-lucky baby. He doesn't get upset too much, except when he want's to do something and you don't let him or you take his food away :) He loves to eat and his chubby little legs are proof of that. Cash has reminded me to sit back and enjoy life. I am so thankful for him.

Russ is still the most amazing husband and father. Colton and Cash are so lucky to have him, I couldn't have picked a better person to go through this journey with me.

This past summer we have developed some wonderful friendships with our neighbors in Lantana. We took a trip with them all to Fredericksburg and to float the river. They all have been such a blessing to our family. And in Januray, Russ and I are taking our first "vacation" since to boys have been born to Costa Rica!!!! This trip is a long time coming and couldn't come at a better time.

I am going to try and do better at posting...try is the key word. Let's see how this goes.